It’s been awhile. Maybe not actually awhile, but it certainly feels like it. I need a break. I need a little vacation, even if it’s a quick one. You know that saying “never run away from your problems”? Fuck it! It feel so fucking good ditching your problems, even just for a little bit. Once that plane takes off, there are no words. Well, that’s what I think. Sure, you’re gonna have to face whatever when you get back, but at least you have some time off. Right?
Funny thing tho, is that I don’t think I’m even stressed out. My classes aren’t so bad actually. Or maybe, I don’t know I’m stressed. Fuck, confusing shit. What’s worse, I just had myself a damn 5 day weekend. My art class was canceled yesterday morning, so didn’t feel like going to my 11 o’clock. Charter Day was today, didn’t even bother checking it out. Yup. One bit fat do nothing much five day weekend. And still, that’s not enough.
I need a vacation. Thank God, spring break’s next week. I’m so fucking ready!
One thing I won’t lie about being jealous of are virgins. Yeah, I’m not a virgin. I lost my virginity when I was 16 and just like everyone else that has lost their virginity it was unexpected, not what I expected, and nothing all that great. I used to regret it, but I learned from my mistake. I fucking got played. Hella bad. I get played all the time when it comes to sex in general. That’s why I stopped all that and it’s almost been a year since I’ve done anything. Although, when it comes to losing my virginity I have no one to really blame other than myself for jumping the gun. I would go back in time and not reply to that text. I would even go back in time to the point where we didn’t know of each others existence and keep it that way. If only. I get so angry livid when a virgin is so eager to lose their virginity that they’ll just give it up to anyone. You have something that most people wish they had and you’re throwing it away. Seriously, your first time will not come anything close to your whole extravagant perception of how your first time should be. A majority, if not everyone regrets their first time and wished they’d saved it. Just save it for someone that you love. Scratch that, you don’t even have to save it for someone you love. Save it for someone special. In doing so, there will be no regret at all. Trust me.